Angry people

 One of the hardest things for me is angry people.  There are so many layers to it.  First for me I take it all on. Figure I could have done better  I know after years of working on this it comes from having an angry father. For that matter my mother was too.  He could not talk about his feelings.  Took it out with drinking and long moody silences.  That were always everyone else's fault   My mother was angry with my father.  Angry at his inability to love. Be loved.  They were not always this way.  They became angry beings.  In my life now as an adult I seem to continue to have this lesson.  I don't feel like a victim. Rather more like a some strange science experiment.  

When I am confronted with this in my life now.  I still do immediately feel like the child that had caused some issue.  I will remove myself. Work on working through it. Think about what might be going on for the other person. 4 agreements. Take nothing personal. Still work.  Still need to remain awake.  Aware. I wonder at times why I do get to keep practicing this particular life lesson.  A spouse that has lots of self inflicted stress. An adult child that lashes out.  A mother of a child I adore. Yet she is most angry.  And feels very justified. Where in all of it do I stand tall. But able to bend like the willow tree.?

I feel sorry for their strife and lack of awareness.  Remembering in all of this.  I do not need to be at the receiving end of not being respected or treated kindly. I will keep being me. Keep working on the light.  Praying for others as well as myself to show grace and forgiveness. Namaste 

Life

So weird I have not posted in 3 years. So much goes on in a day, a year.  LIFE!  The journey continues. Meditation classes, teacher training in Health.  It is my passion. But like many of us I also have a job in the world.  There is so much to learn in the worldly spaces. Showing up and being the best version of yourself.  Not taking things personal. Asking what do you mean before jumping to a conclusion.  Yes, lots to learn.  In the past 3 years the journey has been full of all of that and more.  I continue to share quick thoughts on FB.  But my heart wants to write, to share.  

At the end of the day all we can do is take a deep breath and be thankful for another opportunity to have a fresh start the next day.

Much love 

'Mom ~and~Alzheimer's

Isn't it amazing how much family is our teacher?  When I reflect back over the previous years life has been full of learning.  My relationship with my parents, my brother, husbands, lovers, children, friends.
Even though I have been through some tough times as a child of an alcoholic parent -nothing has compared to the care-giving of a mom I loved dearly succumb to Alzheimer's.
The lessons and  gifts that were part of the 3 years are insurmountable.  My mom knew she was losing it as she would say.  Even up to the end she had awareness -still recognized me.  There was one day near the end she had been asleep and upon awakening she thought I was my daughter.  I waited patiently ~ she looked at me again and said oh Korey it's you.  You are so young!  I asked how old she thought I was.  She said 32-- I was 48 .  And feeling tired and old from the process we both had been going through~I had to laugh till I cried.
 ~ Which was how most days could be.
Because of my mom I love intensely, because  my mom was honest with me - it taught me to be honest, she loved my children like no other.  It has taken me 31/2 years to write anything about her.  
The healing has taken awhile. She is the reason I have become a Spiritual and Life Coach.  My desire to share and love other people through the process of having aging parents.  To work through their own ache for understanding of a disease that shows little mercy. Dignity and respect are the most important things to remember for your parent and for the family.
And in the spirit of finding some humor and love ~  My son said at one point to me "Well we all work to be present --but she has it down she is really in the moment"  
 

Great Teachers and Mentors

                                                         David Simon 1951-2012
Yesterday one of my great teachers and mentors transitioned from the earth plane.  Hard yes for those of us here -not able to speak with him in person or attend a class with the Chopra Center.  David had an amazing ability to blend humor with the seriousness life can bring.
I am so grateful that I was able to attend Journey into Healing -where David spoke with me about the journey I had been on with my mom and her Alzheimer's.    Free to Love Free to Heal -where we worked the weekend to write and grieve our stories --only to realize with gentle humor that our stories can get old for even us!! Imagine how others feel hearing it over and over and over!!
His testimony to living a life of self reflection -choosing a miracle or a grievance in every day life will be with me always. 

Love and Light ~

One of David's favorite poems:


The Sun Never Says
Even
after
all this time
the sun never says to the earth,
“You owe me.”
Look
what happens
with a love like that —
It lights the whole world
 

Heart and Soul Teachings Blog : New Year ~New Intentions

Heart and Soul Teachings Blog : New Year ~New Intentions: Last year for me had many growth moments and some that seemed to go on for weeks:) My heart is all about helping others -but in that how mu...

New Year ~New Intentions

Last year for me had many growth moments and some that seemed to go on for weeks:)  My heart is all about helping others -but in that how much do I help myself?  Such is the struggle for many in this world -but even more in the Spiritual ~ coaching~ mentoring ~ role.  So I sent out the intention!  I needed more people from my TRIBE~  And the universe has sent them -Artists~Coaches~ writers~ astrologers~  all gifted and amazing~
More amazing ~ and I am ALL~ WAYS amazed -is how quickly when intentions are truly spoken, written or visualized they happen.  These are the MIRACLES!!
So this is my birthday month ~ January -Janus  New beginnings ~  I will be setting my intentions for 2012 and continue through out the year~

First one ~  Make time just for me and spirit every morning~  and we will see what comes from that!!
Share yours with me ~